Thursday, July 16, 2009

@ 11:08 PM

can I say I have liven enough for this lifetime?
why am I having these thoughts.
take My life if you can.

but then, what will happen to the ones that Love me?
will they be devastated?
or they will forget Me after time.
tell Me. tell Me why am I feeling so dreadful now.

Life, is becoming meaningless to Those who doesn't treasure it anymore.
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it happened again.
i was thinking, did i make the right choice?
in the end,
the thought shot me.
that the person is not the right person in the end.

i have been searching.
for the right person that can understand me the most.
i blogged once.
i wish i have a twin
my other half that knows me, understands what i want, compromise me, help me when i'm in need
i don't think in this life time, i can find a friend to represent this
not even my mother can do it.
when i am frail, i cant eat...
like just now.
nobody cares at the right time.
nobody is there at all.
maybe if my father is still here,
he will do something to care,
to help me have the appetite to carry on.
when you feel that you are the only one suffering from pain,
just like me.
maybe u are the one that i wish you were by my side all along.

is it the stress where i can't see it, making all my feelings wrong?
or is it the set back since ytd.
where i thought the person whom understands me, turn out to not understand at all?